A blog to honor the lives and souls of animals and the people who love them

Pet Loss and the Holidays: Four Things To Consider When Grieving During the Holidays (or any time!)

Pet Loss and the Holidays: Four Things To Consider When Grieving During the Holidays (or any time!)

Sometimes, holidays can be a very painful time for people who are experiencing their first (or second or third, etc.) special holiday without their loved one who has died. If this is your situation this holiday season, I hope that the following thoughts and ideas may help you through this time:

  1. If you feel sad, annoyed, impatient, turned off or even angry about the holiday glee around you, that’s ok. You’re not Grinch, you’re grieving. No matter what anyone else’s opinions or expectations may be about how you should be handling your loss and the holidays, any and all of your feelings are normal. They are yours to feel and express as you see fit.

  2. Perhaps most importantly, we need to give ourselves empathy and love for our pain, the same way we give tender empathy and love to an animal who is hurting.

  3. We need to give ourselves the time and space we need to heal, each in our own way.

  4. It empowers us and accelerates our healing when we reflect upon and take stock of the blessings and many gifts we’ve received from our relationship with our loved one who has died, and make a commitment to cherish and use those gifts in our continuing life on earth–keeping their legacies alive.

1. If you feel sad, annoyed, impatient, turned off or even angry about holiday celebrations and glee around you, that’s ok. You’re not Grinch, you’re grieving.
Be careful not to criticize or judge yourself for any of your reactions or feelings. Any and all of your feelings are normal. After loss, life is different. Our world is not the same. Sometimes, it can even seem strange that the rest of the world continues, let alone celebrates, because our life may seem to be just standing still, empty, or even filled with darkness. It can feel annoying to hear all those cheerful songs on the radio, to see all those frivolous holiday ads and happy ending movies on television. If your heart is broken from missing your loved one this season, seeing and hearing joyful people and stories around you may seem irrelevant at best and obnoxious at worst. It can be hard to “get into the holiday spirit” when your heart is broken. This is especially true if those around you (which may include family, friends, clergy, spiritual teachers and even mental health professionals) do not recognize the loss of your beloved animal as a legitimate and important loss, or a real reason to grieve .

Judging what we feel or pretending we don’t feel whatever we’re feeling–perhaps because others expect us to join in the frivolity of festivities and pretend we are happy and gay–only prolongs our grief by shoving it underground which postpones our healing. While I am a believer that we all have the power to shift our vibration to feel even just a bit better in a given moment or day, it’s a myth that we can pop ourselves up an emotional scale from profound grief to bliss and joy in a nano second and never feel grief again from a devastating loss. This is part of a harmful new age myth that grief shouldn’t even exist, espoused by a well known law of attraction guru who publicly apologized for resisting her husband’s death by feeling grief. I cringed when I read this, hoping that not too many would mimic her model that feeling grief is somehow wrong, unnecessary and something to be avoided. Grief is not something to apologize for. It is the most natural reaction in the world in response to the loss of anyone or anything that is meaningful to us. It’s what we do with our grief that matters. Pretending we don’t or should not feel grief when someone we love dies, or to pretend to “be over it” does not move us toward healing. It places our pain into denial, repressing it only to come out later, perhaps in surprising or dysfunctional ways. We have to face grief to heal it. This may include politely declining some holiday outings, or that politely telling those who push or expect us to “be over it” that we are not, that we are still grieving.

So when we are heartbroken, feel alienated, annoyed or perhaps pushed to feel happy, what can we do other than stay under the covers or wish the world would just shut up about Christmas and other holidays being a magical time of the year?

2. Perhaps most importantly, we need to seek from others and give to ourselves empathy and love for our pain, the same way we so easily offer tender empathy and love to an animal who is hurting.

Empathy is often confused with sympathy.

Sympathy usually involves caring, concern and compassion–which is helpful. But sympathy also involves feeling pity for the one in pain, and/or a need to “fix” the other’s pain. Sympathy at times may also include feeling horror or revulsion at the other’s painful situation. Pity, a need to fix someone and horror are not at all helpful to offer to others or give to ourselves.

Empathy, on the other hand, is a willingness to understand other’s feelings and pain, a desire to truly understand their worldview, to provide a space to listen without judgement or rush to help, however intense or even irrational the feelings involved may seem. As Peter Breggin says in his book The Heart of Being Helpful, empathy is like “welcoming their feelings as a window to the person’s soul.”

As Carl Rogers discusses in his book Client Centered Therapy, empathy “involves being sensitive, moment to moment, to the changing feelings in this other person [or ourselves], to the fear or rage or tenderness or confusion or whatever is being experienced. It means listening delicately without making judgments.”

We can receive empathy from others who know how to give it, and we can give it to ourselves.

When we receive empathy and acknowledgement for any painful emotion, the heaviness of that feeling diminishes, the pain lessens. When we feel understood, when our pain is acknowledged, we feel less distressed or devastated as a result of that support. Empathy is like a fresh breeze of cool air and a long drink of cold water on a hot, sticky humid day–it is comforting, calming and life-giving. There is magic in empathy. It brings hope; it is calming and life giving. When we know we are understood in our pain and not at all judged, we feel normal, cared about, acknowledged, and real. We feel more empowered, stronger and better equipped to continue healing and engage in life.

On the other hand, when we are told by others or tell ourselves that we “should not feel that way,” that we should “let go of grief and be joyful because, after all, we know our loved one is happy and well in heaven” or  “there really is no separation since we know their spirit is alive” it feels more like someone slams the windows shut in a room that is already overly hot and stuffy making it even harder to breathe. We feel more alone and certainly not understood when peppered with platitudes which do nothing to heal emotional pain, but merely make those who state them feel good about themselves as they attempt to impose their beliefs onto us to “fix” us.

To take charge of our healing we need to seek out resources of empathic support that resonate with us–such as people who truly understand, grief counselors who specialize in pet loss, healers, books, web sites, classes, meditations, etc.–that bring us the energy of empathy and acknowledgement for our loss and our grief and practical tools to cope and heal. Sometimes the greatest support we receive when grieving may not be from our family or inner circle (though it is a great blessing when it is!), but from those we do not know well in our daily lives. And sometimes the kind of support to which we feel drawn are things we may never have explored before. That’s OK. The type of support and where it comes from doesn’t matter. What matters is that we seek it, embrace it and allow it to help us heal. 

It can help to avoid people who seem unable to accept that our grief process continues, and that in their eyes we haven’t yet “moved on” (you know, those folks who think that after a few weeks we should be over it and go get a new puppy already, or stop feeling depressed already). People who are uncomfortable with our grief may throw platitudes at us as if a spiritual or psychological phrase or two–from their belief systems–will make everything OK. When such people cannot be avoided, try responding with phrasing such as, “I appreciate that you’re trying to help me. I am working through this in my own way, with my own beliefs, in my own time.” When that doesn’t work, don’t be afraid to be more direct and say, “I don’t find platitudes to be of help, or to have others tell me what they believe or what works for them. Again, I am working this through in my own way, with my own beliefs. Your acknowledging my loss is enough, thank you.”

Though it is sometimes necessary to set boundaries with people who may be offensive, and it’s incredibly healing to receive empathic support from those who give it, what about giving ourselves empathy?

It’s critical to give ourselves the empathic gifts of patience and acknowledgement. We would most probably never say to a beloved animal who is injured or in physical pain, “Hurry up and just get up and walk already!” Rather than imposing such a heartless edict to hurry up and heal, we would be more likely to place our hands, our love, and our healing energy and prayers onto a beloved animal who is in physical pain to offer our support and help as they heal in whatever time it takes for them to heal. We need to offer this same gentle lovingkindness onto our own emotional pain, as we heal in whatever time it takes for us to heal.

Listen to the feelings in your own heart and honor them. And for every feeling that comes into your awareness, tell yourself how normal it is to feel that way, then gently and empathically pour love, calm, comfort and peace onto those feelings.

You might try this exercise:
Close your eyes, take a few breaths to become more relaxed and quiet. Then place your hands on your heart, and visualize love from your own hands entering your heart, surrounding your grief and pain with soft yet powerful love, calm, comfort and peace.

Now, picture the love, calm, comfort and peace energy not just surrounding your pain, but gently overlaying it–not in an attempt to prematurely erase your pain, but to completely envelope it with this powerful love, calm, comfort and peace. Picture your pain shifting from jagged, harsh edges to softer, smoother curves. Picture your pain calming and shifting from a swollen redness to your favorite calming color, perhaps soft pink, soft blue or green. Picture the energies of calm, peace, love and comfort filling your heart, and being bigger than your pain. Let yourself just be at peace.

Even if this visualization healing technique works for only a few minutes, it “teaches” your mind how possible it is to go back to this state of less jagged, sharp pain, to pain that is still real, yet softer, surrounded by love, calm, comfort and peace. It is from such a place that our overall healing accelerates, making the days, weeks and months of grieving less overwhelming, and more manageable.

© Teresa Wagner 2017

While empathy and love from others is powerfully validating, we cannot control the consistency of others’ actions of support. But we CAN control our own thoughts and feelings about ourselves. Empathy for ourselves, for our pain of grief, is a powerful act of self love. Showering your grief (and all feelings related to your loss) with empathy and love will not erase your grief, but it can greatly reduce the energy of suffering and invite in the energy of grace.

Care for your breaking heart with as much devotion as you likely have your own animals when they were ill. You deserve to be loved as much as your animal loves you. Learn to love yourself as much as your animal loves you.

3. We need to give ourselves the time and space we need to heal, each in our own way.
We all have different personality types with varying levels of preference regarding being with people and being with ourselves. These natural preferences can intensify in times of crisis. There is no one right way to handle socializing during the holidays when we are grieving. Some people feel energized, rejuvenated and healthily distracted from their grief by being with others and attending parties and gatherings. Yet for others, just the thought of putting on a happy face and going to social events is daunting. Neither is right or wrong. It’s important for us to to listen to our own hearts about what we need and then follow that, even if this means others may not understand or like it. This is a time to take care of ourselves, in the ways we know are best for us. Following what we know is best for us and taking good care of ourselves as we are grieving is more important than making others happy with our choices about how we do that.

Some years ago, when one of my cats died very unexpectedly just a few weeks before Christmas, I knew I needed time alone. Though I am grateful that I was able to be fully present and intimate with him through his last days and his death process, the aftermath seemed unbearable. I felt an extremely strong need to spend time alone and in reflection. For days and weeks, during all of my non-working hours, I sat quietly in front of the fire with my other cat, looking through photos and alternately meditating, talking with him, and crying out my tears. Sometimes I watched movies or read novels just to escape the intensity of the pain. I made an altar with his ashes, photos, candles and the loving sympathy cards sent after his death. My cat Olivia, elderly and ill herself at this time, was grieving as deeply as I was. She spent time both on my lap and by her brother’s ashes (which at her request I took off the mantle altar and placed on the floor because she loved to rub her face against the sacred box of his ashes). We grieved together and comforted one another.

Olivia, who purred and rubbed her face
on her brother’s box of ashes

I did not have it in me to celebrate a holiday and go to parties and dinners. My feline son had died very abruptly and unexpectedly and my world was way off its axis. So I took all the time I needed to be alone, to go within and begin to heal. This is not to say that everyone should do this, or that I will always feel called to have so much alone time every time I experience a loss. With previous losses, I have held both large, celebratory memorial services and small, intimate gatherings to honor my loved ones who have died. Not only does every person and animal grieve in their own unique way, but every situation of loss is different. Listen to your heart about what you need at any given time, and follow it.

If you are a family member, friend or loved one of someone who has experienced loss, one of the greatest gifts you can give them during the holidays is to ask them what they are most comfortable with regarding time together, regarding socializing and the need for time alone. Support them if and when they decide to spend time alone rather than socializing. Don’t take it personally! And don’t attempt to impose on them what you would do, or what you think they should do. This is their loss. Find out what they need and support them accordingly. And when you are with someone in a social situation who is grieving a loss, make an acknowledgment of their loss rather than pretending it did not happen. Honor their loss. Honor the relationship they had with their loved one. Make a toast in a group if appropriate, or make a kind and loving comment in private. You don’t have to fix anything or espouse your beliefs about where their loved one is, why death happens or how they will or should heal (in fact, please don’t do any of this–it doesn’t help unless they have asked for your opinions). Merely acknowledging their loss, telling them that you care and will support their desire for social or alone time is a great gift.

4. It empowers us and accelerates our healing when we reflect upon and take stock of the blessings and many gifts we’ve received from our time with our loved one who has died, and make a commitment to cherish and use those gifts in our continuing life on earth–keeping their legacies alive.

As heavy and endless as our grief may feel, in the overall timeline of the years with our loved one, their death and our grief from their death is only one chapter of many that we’ve had together. It can be very empowering and healing to take time to reflect upon all the chapters we’ve had together–the memories, the learning and the lasting gifts from all the days of our lives together. One way to honor our relationship is to identify and acknowledge all we’ve received from it. This, of course, does not erase our grief but it does place it into the context of the broader wholeness of our life together.

One of the rituals in my Legacies of Love workshops is called “What I’ve Lost, What I Still Have and The Legacies I’ve Received and How I’ll Use Them.” The purpose of this process is to help us view and  consider a “complete” picture of our loss and grief in the context of our life at this time. We have lost something of inestimable value. Yet we also still have things for which to be grateful, and things that we can still cherish. And, we still have much we can create with the gifts we’ve gained from our time together on earth.

Reflect upon the gifts and legacies left to you by your loved one, and how you can invest them in your life. Almost every client I’ve ever worked with tells me that the greatest gift they received from their animals was love. In addition to receiving love, I’ve heard so many other stories about learning patience, receiving joy, learning to feel worthy of love, learning about non-judgement, courage, perseverance, commitment, learning that they could be a good parent and much more.  

Some people I’ve worked with have made sweeping changes in their life as a way to create a legacy in honor of their animal. One woman started a pet loss support group, another started an animal rescue organization. These are laudable efforts and are helping untold numbers of people and animals. However, not all legacies and how we use them are public. Most, actually, are private and may be known only to the person themselves. One woman told me about how she learned to listen from the example of her cat and decided that she would learn more about listening more attentively to both her other cats and to the humans in her life. Another client told me about how she learned about patience from her dog and courage from her horse. She was so moved by their examples that she considered this learning a great legacy from them, and was committed to practicing more patience and courage in her own life. Every legacy is unique. The important thing is to identify them, use them, to integrate them into our daily lives to honor both our animals and ourselves.

It is my hope that perhaps even one of the ideas in this article may fill you with courage , hope and love to not only cope with and survive these special holiday seasons and days, but to also find meaning, solace and connection with the spirit of your animal loved ones.


Help to heal your grief:
Legacies of Love Audio Book
Legacies of Love On Demand Workshop
Pet Loss Grief Support Bundle Savings
Comfort & Support in Your Time of Grief (web site pages)

Help when you feel guilty:
Understanding Guilt–Finding Peace and Self-Forgiveness

Grief counseling:
Tips to find and choose a grief counselor
Counseling Sessions with Teresa

Additional specialized grief support classes:
List of individual classes

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *